This is the year of the crooked Christmas star.
We have a beautiful bronze star we have used for years. It is supposed to light up. But, the lights burned out last year. I suppose that’s a blog post for another time!
I can’t bear to part with it!
This year it is perched quite crooked.
At first we tried and tried to get that star to sit straight. But now, honestly, when we think about straightening it, we just look at it and laugh.
Such has been our year.
It has been a very crooked and crazy journey.
It stands as a funny reminder that we made it. Even though it was such a crooked journey and rather out-of-the-box for us, we made it.
It was not what we expected. It was not easy. It was not perfect. It was full of potholes and pit stops and detours. It was not as we would have scripted for this point in our lives.
Yet, here we are. We made it. We are all together. We are whole.
We are not perfect. But, we certainly can laugh.
If you’re like me, you often scroll through and see the gorgeous photos of shiny, sparkly Christmas cheer on Facebook and Instagram. They are awe-inspiring and often perfect.
Perfectly set and coordinated.
I love looking at and enjoy being inspired by them just as much as the next soul. I think we all need to see beautiful things. I mean, who wants to sit around and see messed up, screwed up, tacky all day long. Not me. We have to remember, though, it’s not always perfect.
We know much of it is staged and just outside of screen view are the piles of bills and boxes and much undone.
And that is life.
But, we love to see the beautiful.
Here is the picture of my crooked star. I figure you will get a great laugh out of my imperfect tree topper. We’ve pretty much given up on making it straight. It is about as symbolic as can be for us.
We look and laugh. We don’t take it seriously.
Life has bumps.
We had a significant bump this past year. And actually, we are coming upon the year anniversary. We are all human and yet we continue on. We continue loving and living. Opening our hearts and hands. We move forward.
This year we look different and feel different. There are different people in our lives. Many added that we did not even know just a year ago. And some gone.
We walk different paths now and do different things and go many different places. It’s crazy the difference a year makes. This crazy crooked journey!
But, it is ours!
God’s grace is always present in the journey.
It has been far from perfect. Figuring things out as we go. For perfectionists, this can be a challenge. Searching for normal and equilibrium. Finding the margins and loosening the grips on control. That is all part of this grace journey. All in the move on this crooked way.
If we look at the story of Mary and the birth of Jesus, it is less than perfect by human standard.
The Savior of the world was born in a barn. A dirty, smelly barn. He was born to two young parents. Far from home.
And then, in a desperate move, a power hungry king began the search for this unknown boy. Being divinely guided, Joseph and Mary fled to Egypt in the dead of night to save the life of their son.
This perfect Boy, born into a not-so-perfect world, is intimately aware of the battle between good and evil.
He knows our weakness.
He is acquainted with our hurt and pain.
He understands the frustration of the crooked journey.
He knows us and has walked the same way.
The best part, though, He was perfect. He made it through. He led the way.
He led a way we can follow. Like the Magi followed the star, we have a light to follow.
And, He will lead us all the way home.
His grace is sufficient.
I just read this verse in 2 Corinthians 12:9, “My grace is sufficient for you.” His grace is sufficient for every situation I find myself in. His grace is all I need. Regardless of the place–crooked or straight.
My Christmas star may be a little crooked. It’s a simple reminder. Life isn’t perfect. And that is ok. Jesus is. And that is enough. He’s got me. And He will lead us all the way home.
Amberly reynolds 