This past week the reminders have been quite vivid and stir my soul. When God works, he does an amazing job. He unceasingly works on our behalf and I must stop and call attention to his handiwork.
I am amazed when I witness the tender loving care of a Father who knows exactly what we long for and desperately need. Our need and pain are not lost on him. When we relinquish control of our will and plans and rely totally on him, he speaks to our need. We may not even know exactly what it is we need, but he does.
What a loving, personal God.
He could have set this world in motion and stepped aside to see what we could come up with. Watching from a distance. And waiting. But he didn’t.
And, most certainly, we make a mess out of things. Our pain comes from our own hands or from selfish desires around us.
No matter the depth of our brokenness and regardless of how far scattered the pieces of our hearts, his beautiful grace works a breathtaking miracle. If we let him. When it is the easiest to hide and shelter our hearts, that is when we must step into the light.
Vulnerable and available.
He longs to bless and comfort and mend the broken shreds. But, so often we shrink into the shadows. People hurt. Rejection screams. Loss tears and rips at the fiber of our souls. And we lay in a heap. Broken. Devastated. Wounded. Desperate.
Desperate for a loving grace that brings healing.
Truly, desperate to be known, and yet loved.
He knows our weakness and our vulnerability. How desperate we are for him. He longs for us. He seeks us out. He searches and finds us.
Do we hide because we are undone and naked? Who of our fathers and mothers was that again?
Are we the only ones? Are we walking in the company of a great swell of witnesses? Those who have walked through shadows cheer us on.
What do we lose if we quit? Who remains lost because we refused to be known? He knows and sees anyway. All is already clear to him anyway.
Why do we feel the need to hide?
He has healing in his hands. Pours out the oil of gladness and a peace that no man can conjure. In my depths, I look up for hope. He is our hope waiting along with peace and joy. Healing.
What man and the snake intended for evil, all will be made right.
The gift of the cross made right our broken souls.
It made clear what the serpent sought to do. Death was in the serpent’s lie. Death is the tongue and jealous desires of man. But, no man can ever separate us from the Love of God. No schemes or plans can ever cause our release from his grip.
It’s a grip. A grip of grace, of love, of hope, of joy.
Hiding causes us to miss it. In the moments of hiding and closing off our hearts, God holds the remedy. A salve only found in him.
He does all things well.
The Psalmist of long ago cried out with such beauty and desperation I feel it in the depths of my soul:
“I think about the heavens.
I think about what your fingers have created.
I think about the moon and stars
that you have set in place.
What are human beings that you think about them?
What is a son of man that you take care of him?”
Yes! That is me! My human self!
My micro self in the sight of a macro God. There is awe in the reality.
Why in the world should I hide?
I am known by him and yet I am desperately loved.
I’m not a burden or disappointment. Ever.
I am my beloveds; he is mine.
And, you, too. Created and kissed by God. He created us and called us good.
I am safest when I hide in his hand.
Not hiding from his hand.
Healing is in those hands. For he has engraved us upon his palms.